Happy Mother's Day Mom.

Well...here comes another Mother's Day. I am so thankful to be a mom! I REALLY mean that. I think I have always been a "mom in training." I have sort of lived to be a mom I guess you would say. I remember always having baby dolls and lots of them. Gracie now has about 12 babies and that might just have me beat...but I know I was always mothering a baby. I mothered all our cats growing up. I mothered Brian before we had kids. But, I am not saying I am always the best mom. You can ask my kids that one! I make many mistakes... but I have never been more thankful for a blessing from God (except for my husband!) than when I had each of my three children. They truly are a special gift and even on the worst days I am truly amazed that they were given to me.

I guess before I had my own kids I dreaded mother's day. Mom died 24 years ago this month. She was in the hospital for her very last mother's day. I still have that card we gave her that day. It's still hard sometimes. I think that almost daily I think of a question I would have liked to ask her. At 15 there isn't really much about life that you don't think you already know. I wasn't really thinking about things to ask her then.

I wish she could met my husband. She would have thought he was really good man. I know she would have gotten his humor (or at least tolerated it)!

She would have loved Bubs. I think he would have loved her too. She wasn't loud or boisterous...he would like that about her...I think she might know about Bubs right now...sometimes I wish I had her to talk to about my struggles with him and to call when he blows me away with just being himself!

I wish she could have met Samuel...he asks about her picture a lot and asks me questions about my childhood. I don't always have the answer and wish she was here to tell him stories about me. I wish we could call her when he scores a goal or when he gets all E's on his report card. I wish she could see those things.

Gracie is a lot like me as a child. I think she would have found it very funny that I have a girl who can run me in circles just the way I did with her. She would have found her just as adorable as we all do ( and just as exhausting...) One thing I am SO looking forward to is sharing life with Gracie and hoping that I get that chance.

One day when we get to meet again, there's a lot I want to tell her. We won't know until we meet our maker if it's gonna be possible to have those types of conversations. But I KNOW that Jesus loved his mother and I would like to think He would understand that I would want recognize my mom and be able to say...."Happy Mother's Day MOM!"